And other cynical, profanity-laced yet heartfelt responses to the death of my baby
Friday, January 25, 2008
You Know
Because we all need more crappy news. A & S at Our Own Creation lost Lennox on January 5, and yesterday, they lost Lennox's twin sister Zoe. As I said to them, I'm stunned. And I'm weeping.
Yeah, I saw this on Lost and Found and went over and left a message. There is nothing we can do, but I hope those comments will give her a tiny bit of comfort. They did for me.
About this post, I went over and read through her blog. This actually makes me wish I believed in God. Then I could yell and curse at him and tell him what an @ssh0le he was.
On February 12, 2007, my daughter Maddalena (Maddy) was born. After 12-14 prenatal ultrasounds -- most for non-baby related issues like a rather scary subchorionic bleed and low-lying placenta -- and a clean amnio, we were nothing short of ecstatic upon the arrival of our beautiful, 6 lb. girl. The docs decided to move her to the NICU overnight for what appeared to be breathing issues related to meconium intake. And then the wheels came off the bus. And the bus spun out of control, and hurdled off the cliff, causing our chests to decompress and vomit to rise in our throats, followed by the bus blowing up, sending shrapnel into our eyes and making our skin melt like that guy in Raiders of the Lost Ark . . . . where was I? Oh yeah. Maddy was moved to Children's Hospital, and died on Feb. 18, 6 days old. She is survived by her mom [waves hand], her dad (aka, Mr. ABF), and her big sister Bella. Be prepared for discussion on infertility, ART, grief, toddlerhood, wine recommendations, recipe queries and dog training. Oh, and genetics. And I don't know boo about genetics, so this ought to be really entertaining.
7 comments:
I hadn't checked lost and found today, so I didn't know. Thank you for putting the terrible news up for us.
I left a comment. But, in doing so, I felt the futility of the whole thing. So many people devastated. So little that any of us can do.
God, when you think it can't get any worse...it does. My heart aches for them and I don't even know them. It's just so not right.
Yeah, I saw this on Lost and Found and went over and left a message. There is nothing we can do, but I hope those comments will give her a tiny bit of comfort. They did for me.
The last line of the song was, "And baby Jesus lit the match."
About this post, I went over and read through her blog. This actually makes me wish I believed in God. Then I could yell and curse at him and tell him what an @ssh0le he was.
I am just beyond sad for them.
~Carole
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