tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8937223408953728341.post4786731336029103983..comments2024-03-07T05:17:50.699-05:00Comments on Awful But Functioning: Day Five, PurgatoryTashhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07376651134993450207noreply@blogger.comBlogger11125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8937223408953728341.post-72400781617417222482008-02-18T16:46:00.000-05:002008-02-18T16:46:00.000-05:00This is so sad to read and yet, your love for her ...This is so sad to read and yet, your love for her shines through every single word. You said in a entry just a few days back that you were pretty sure you did well by Maddy and that you deserved some flowers, too. All I can say is that if I am ever in this situation, I can handle myself with even a fraction of your grace.Katiehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/08961948894847619115noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8937223408953728341.post-59945221823056722008-02-18T00:15:00.000-05:002008-02-18T00:15:00.000-05:00Thank you so much for telling Maddy's story. I don...Thank you so much for telling Maddy's story. <BR/><BR/>I don't know what to say but that this is such a beautifully written saga commemorating her life.<BR/><BR/>thinking of you all....<BR/><BR/>my heart sinks a little as I anticipate what will come tomorrowmissing_onehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/05657322353094120712noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8937223408953728341.post-48087819640224166942008-02-17T19:42:00.000-05:002008-02-17T19:42:00.000-05:00Someone once told me about the idea that souls tra...Someone once told me about the idea that souls travel in packs. That through lives and dimensions we're drawn to each other, that on some other plane we know each other.<BR/><BR/>And in efforts to be together again our souls sign up for this life, consciously. They sign up to be gestated and grown and born, even if sick and still, to have an impact on us as their parents - to bring us love, to have us know them, even for just a few days or weeks.<BR/><BR/>I don't know how this theory made me feel. I'm stil trying to figure it out. To think of all Maddy went through, all that Liam went through... to think their souls came through to us with this foresight, but came through to us anyway... it may be hokey, or contrived, or new-agey, but over the past seven months it's brought me a sort of vividness, a sort of pride for him, given me a focus when I'm staring out the window at the stars.<BR/><BR/>I hope it doesn't strike you as desperate for answers, even if they require fabrication. If it does, I'm okay with that. Cause most of the time, that's what I am.<BR/><BR/>Heart with you and yours, thinking of Maddy.sweetsalty katehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/15822876211091242851noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8937223408953728341.post-14470343168734763602008-02-17T19:16:00.000-05:002008-02-17T19:16:00.000-05:00purgatory indeed...or a living hell, looking back ...purgatory indeed...or a living hell, looking back after you've had a chance to breathe and get some sleep. except, of course, the after is even worse.<BR/><BR/>this is so vivid, Tash...the young residents, all shiny, the strange saturation tune out when the brain can take no more. i remember the shaking respirator...my stomach tanked with recognition when i read your description. i heard that thing in my sleep for months.<BR/><BR/>you are doing a beautiful job of writing this. i don't know if that matters, but in a way, it brings us all there, makes Maddy's life and legacy a part of each of us, too. i thank you, for sharing. for trusting.Bonhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/14403701620708365171noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8937223408953728341.post-513410917995904662008-02-17T16:16:00.000-05:002008-02-17T16:16:00.000-05:00Your writing of this is just amazing. The story m...Your writing of this is just amazing. The story makes me cry. I know it must be so hard to tell this story. I'm still thinking of you.EmmaLhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/01976963296705941968noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8937223408953728341.post-57541020007350007392008-02-17T15:29:00.000-05:002008-02-17T15:29:00.000-05:00I find myself thinking that a lot about 'professio...I find myself thinking that a lot about 'professionals' these days. Policemen, teachers, doctors - they're all so young, but then I realize it's just because I'm getting old. <BR/><BR/>I can not imagine how hard those days were for you.<BR/>I'm so sorry Tash xCoggyhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/07435179051565255934noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8937223408953728341.post-45569711301019992442008-02-17T12:42:00.000-05:002008-02-17T12:42:00.000-05:00I'm thinking about you - and thinking with every n...I'm thinking about you - and thinking with every new blog entry how freaking strong you and Mr. ABF had to be.<BR/>I know if flies in the face of the official deadbabymama all-our-sorrow-is-equal stance but what you went through is the most harrowing week I can imagine, <BR/>Tash. <BR/>I am so fucking sorry.Meganhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/02222598464601154747noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8937223408953728341.post-17296571392447335642008-02-17T12:17:00.000-05:002008-02-17T12:17:00.000-05:00Reading Maddy's story, everytime she overcomes a h...Reading Maddy's story, everytime she overcomes a hurdle, I can't help but feel relieved and hopeful that she will pull through, eventho I know what the end of her story here on earth is. I can not ever imagine how you functioned, how you made such enourmous decisions, how you were able to be the perfect parent for her. <BR/>Your writing of this unbelievably heartwrenching life story is just amazing. <BR/>I am thinking of you and your family and especially Maddy on these sad anniversary days.k@laklyhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/05366772609212990882noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8937223408953728341.post-78679384653542660392008-02-17T11:49:00.000-05:002008-02-17T11:49:00.000-05:00Just want you to know I am thinking of you all tod...Just want you to know I am thinking of you all today.Amyhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/00912286121374215944noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8937223408953728341.post-66878900721110540882008-02-17T11:34:00.000-05:002008-02-17T11:34:00.000-05:00These days are so impossibly long, and so impossib...These days are so impossibly long, and so impossibly brief. Knowing what happens on day six makes this even more poignant, if that is even possible. <BR/><BR/>Overconfident, shiny residents? Yup, met some.Juliahttps://www.blogger.com/profile/09745262857388007041noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8937223408953728341.post-63857631426468157612008-02-17T11:29:00.000-05:002008-02-17T11:29:00.000-05:00I'm so sorry for this anniversary. Just wanted to ...I'm so sorry for this anniversary. Just wanted to tell you that I was thinking of you.<BR/><BR/>I loved your description of the doctors. An anaethetist came to see me and I thought, "Has he even graduated from high school?" It was so easy saying no to what he wanted and insisting on what I wanted, I mean he was younger than my youngest sister.<BR/><BR/>These sound like such tough days. I'm glad you had your dad there. I'll light a candle for Maddy tonight, I'm catching up a bit late.Unknownhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/00675811282678813332noreply@blogger.com